“..and I carry that sh*t real deep in my chest.”🖤
Maybe you have a similar story of a one parent home, or a parentless home all together, possibly raised by grandparents? An aunt, sister, foster care even? For the record, it you came from a two parent home, it doesn’t mean it was serene, calm, or fitting to your developmental needs. For me, I was taken from my mother’s care at eighteen months old, I was a baby. The above photo is from the set of hospital pictures from my birth back in November 1990. My paternal grandmother received guardianship over me and I moved from California to New Jersey in 1992. Flying with nothing in possession but a baby blanket and the nightgown I had on my tiny little body. If you need to come back to this post, I understand, please know I share with deep loving intentions.
Being honest about where we come from is a key to the door of a whole new world and future for who you are becoming! Trust! As a little girl, I started noticing the people around me, I would observe them and their actions. I noticed how their actions made me feel and where it made me question my circumstances. Mainly my father’s two sisters and his mother, until my aunts moved out of the home we all shared. My fathers family was from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania originally, and my mothers family was from Southern California. When we are honest about our childhood circumstances, we allow ourselves to naturally heal without such force, or we become better prepared to give back to others (selflessly) what we were giving, and more easily. After we acknowledge and accept, where do we go from there?
How do we manage the pain!? How do you share the abundance you may have been blessed with? How do we simply, forgive and forget? How do we share what we know to be true without our own personal dogma or force? How do we find our voices a midst a competitive world? I’m going to answer those questions in my blog!
This is my story. You have yours. Together we can learn from one another and create a world of better understanding and ultimately, peace. This may be the single hardest blog and topic I ever write about. In this very moment writing this caption, there are so many points I could delve into, but this post is a mere introduction.
I refuse to stay down because of my “circumstances”, “cards dealt”, or “baggage”. Next to this, once we have forgiven others who may have hurt us (directly or indirectly) and healed, what is next? That’s where you and I coming together, go hand in hand. I warn you, the work I have done… is deep. It can be triggering, but I’m here to soften the blow!
Most importantly, I want to create connections between people and their own needs, dreams, and larger aspirations! In growing up I came to see the silver linings, acknowledged the people that were there for me (blood relative or not), and I started to shift my thinking. I know how to change our habits from less desirable and destructive to more productive and positive. If I stay silent and don’t speak, share what I know, it would be a travesty. It would create disease in my body, in my home, and overall life. I was born to share my story and build a bridge for others to explore theirs!
If I stay silent and don’t speak, someone else may miss their signs, all because I chose to be quiet. I come to you with experience, points of reference, and answers you may be seeking yourself but can’t quite pinpoint.
If you’re willing to hear me out, may you get exactly what you need from my hearts quest to make your journey a little more palatable. I was taken from my mother’s care at eighteen months old - I was a baby. My father did what he thought was best for me and him, and for this, I am forever grateful.
My dad wasn’t perfect, but he sure stood up at the right time and made a significant difference and contribution to my life by helping get me out of California. The road traveled may have once been dark, but by looking forward and up, I have found the light needed to continue forward. I want the same for you!
Stand by homie..
This blog is currently underway.. & I am only getting started. :) Stay Tuned & Be Kind To Yourself in the Meantime Love!
X O,
Shawnee
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